Deal gone Wrong[Open]Jun 14, 2022 21:46:40 GMT -5
Hyūga Shigure
the price of freedom is steep
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age 21 years old
birthday August 20
rank Jōnin
occupation Genin Team 1 Lead / Interception Team
"deal gone wrong". "No matter how many people you may lose, you have no choice but to go on living." THOSE WHO ARE GONE
Ayukawa was open to hear about what happened to Shigure's original team, so once she confirmed it, he nodded at the girl and looked up to the skies, as his mind went back to a very painful day in his past. He took a deep breathe, stopping to feel the breeze of wind lightly touching his face, a small comfort before a painful journey to the days passed. "We had just managed to make it to the second round of the Chuunin Exams for the first time, we had failed to pass the first round before, so we were all very excited, looking forward the challenge ahead. A few days into the round, we were ambushed by a couple enemies team and we had to fight for our lives." he started, pausing briefly. "We fought hard, but we were outnumbered and, to be completely honest, not ready for a fight to the death. We knew the risks, but we ignored it... We believed we would be just fine. When I realized what was going to happen, I froze. I was scared and shaking, I didn't want to die. I was completely frightened." he admitted, sighing deeply and shaking his head. "My teammates had to protect me, I couldn't fight or defend myself... Now... Fighting to survive is already hard on itself, but when you have some one to protect, it is even harder... Ultimately, they died fending off our enemies, and I survived, albeit seriously injured." Shigure would then lower his gaze so he could look at Ayukawa. His eyes were not hiding the sadness, but he kept a mostly collected expression, no tears coming to his eyes.
"I withdrew from the exams, too shaken to continue, and the guilt overwhelmed me... I couldn't help but to blame myself, thinking if only I had been stronger or braver, maybe they would still be alive, maybe I would was the one who deserved to die." he closed his eyes, pausing for a moment, the subject being clearly painful despite him doing his best to not succumb to that feeling again. "My father blamed my sensei for that, and sent him on dangerous mission after the other, until he died in one of them, and I also felt like this was my fault. Again, if only I'd been stronger, three people precious to me would still be here..." and to say that made him feel a sting in his heart, it was a nauseating truth, one he had to live with every day. "That destroyed me inside... But... After a while, I came to realize I had to move on, for their sake... They entrusted their lives to me, they died so I could continue here, and I owe them as much." once he said that, he frowned his brows ever so slightly, looking determined. "I know you feel like you failed someone you loved, and that they suffered for it... I know where those dark thoughts can lead us to... But, Ayukawa-san, you are still here, and so is Issei. If you need time to heal, that's fine... But distancing yourself from him will only hurt you both. It's not fair with how you feel, or how he feels, even if you think it's the right choice. We can't change the past, but we can learn from it." Shigure clenched his fist and raised his arm. "So that we won't let that happen again. So that we can be there to protect those we care about." he nodded.
As shinobi, they were bound to suffer in this world of hatred, but the strength to move on and grow from their mistakes, so they could protect the bonds they created. That was what he truly believed in.
"So what if it seems hopeless? If it were me, I still wouldn't give up. Embrace your dreams. And, whatever happens, protect your honour as a Shinobi, for the price of freedom is steep."
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Ren
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