Kisei Sachi
"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.”
groupGrass Shinobi
age 15 years old
birthday March 9
rank Genin
occupation
"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now." Sachi felt a tad guilty after Kai had switched his seat to be across from her, blue eyes darted to the side as she raised her cup to her face, covering her expression slightly. Feeling a bit exposed, she wondered if she was that easy to figure out and felt like she hadn’t thought about it enough to give a proper explanation. She took a large gulp of the wine in front of her, returning the cup to the table. "An oil lamb becomes brighter after trimming, a truth becomes clever after being discussed,” the aphorism returned to her just as it did in the spectator booth this morning. It was concerning him after all, the source of the smoke that imparted effects unknown onto her. Within the haze of her feelings, she wondered if the brightness of Kai’s fiery presence could light her way even just a little.
"I..." Sachi began, her voice light yet steady as she sat with composure, her hands folded in her lap as she unlit her kiseru and set it on the table. Meeting Kai's gaze unwaveringly. She was still nervous but the girl could always perform under pressure especially when it came to conversation, her formal position allowed her to do so even if she was slightly tipsy. "I mentioned before that there was something different about you, didn't I? Something cooler, perhaps?” She closed her eyes as if gathering her thoughts, the beating of her heart loud but now slowing down.
"I may have underestimated you, Kai. Despite finding you endearing from the start, I realize now that I may have harbored preconceived biases about your abilities as a shinobi and maybe as a person. It's hard to explain." She pauses trying to think of words to appropriately explain a little embarrassed that she had admitted her faults. "I feel like when we first met, I already assumed things about you that continued to stick with me until a bit ago. I know vaguely about what had happened in your past and so it became a reason to support my preconceived notions about you and I do apologize for it.” She bowed her head with a small look of repentance, her twin tails falling before her. "But during our battle, suddenly, I realized you've always had been a hardworking, amazing shinobi and once I thought of that, I recalled all the times from the past and realized that you've always been quite a serious person, not just in our match either. As serious as you were during our battle, you were also that way in our relationship. I don’t know why I didn’t see it or rather… I feel like I overlooked it. I guess the gravity of what those words meant was shrouded by how I thought about you. Those things I did for you weren’t special or different from things I would do for anyone else...” Lifting her gaze to meet his once more, she continued, her voice softening with sincerity. "The time you've spent with me, the dates we've shared, and the love you've expressed... I now realize the significance of those gestures, and I apologize for not fully appreciating them before. I understand now that you are serious about us, about me."
She paused, her eyes reflecting a mixture of emotions as she continued to bare her soul. "I do feel really bad about it and the reason why I’m thinking about it as of late is because you’ve been on my mind lately. I thought about why that might be because usually my thoughts are occupied with studying and plants. It’s weird for me to think about any singular person for a long period of time but,” Her eyes gazed wistfully almost looking past him as she continued to speak softly, her cheeks turning bright red, "I’m constantly thinking about the next thing we might do with one another, when will we see each other again. Sometimes, my train of thinking will pause and go "Ah, Kai is my boyfriend” and then my line of thinking will repeat.” With an awkward smile, she confessed, "I-I feel both excited and nervous whenever we talk now, especially after our battle. It's as if I'm experiencing something new, something almost like falling ill, aha. It's a bit scary too, knowing what how I viewed you before and how much it's changed." Despite her self-awareness, Sachi remained oblivious to the obvious signs of her growing feelings, perhaps intentionally ignoring them for the sake of self-preservation--even if there was no sense in doing so.
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