The moment in which Arashi felt that she was completely broken and unable to move passed this had come and gone so many times. Between the loss of her own innocence, her friends, Akira....and now her mother...
It felt as if she was on a constant tightrope, balancing every aspect of her life and keeping it together when a crisis came upon her. This seemed like the straw that finally cracked what mental stability she had been reserving for herself and she was hanging onto her sanity by simply focusing away from it. Perhaps it wasn't healthy, nor was it a weakness for her to express just what she was feeling, but the well was vast on just how much grief she had been keeping to herself.
As she felt her hands still reaching for the emptiness that came from touching the escaping sand beneath her, she'd feel the embrace that came from the Shippai as it loomed over her, holding her as if to keep her steady as she remained on her knees. Her thoughts remained absent and unaware of the sensation with a mixture of warmth and cold reality.
She'd honestly have reacted to it negatively had a small part of her had not wished for such contact, but having it was welcomed, even if it was from what could be considered a being incapable of such understanding.
Doing her best to collect herself, she'd remain where she was, 294 still holding her as she held her hands to her chest as she sobbed, biting back her tear as she felt them overwhelming her once more.
If this was truly that point of helplessness, she didn't see any way out of it...
She often thought...even if for the briefest of moments, that when people did depart, they did leave something behind....what remained of their souls, imparting some comfort to those left behind...
But just as she had sensed it lingering in the back of her mind, feeling that warmth that came with knowing that there was still some semblance of her mother still with her, that voice that drove her much like what she heard from those that loved her. She could not no longer draw upon that strength.
As if reaching for it, she could only find a void...and it was hollow and just seemed to be growing...much nothing more than herself...just as 294 had said...
She was no longer there....she couldn't feel her...sense her...nothing...
Finally, Arashi would allow herself to begin to rise back up to her feet, her hand brushing against her fast as to remove the traces of her crying as she nodded toward 294.
"I...I don't recall Shippai being known for giving comfort....ya really aren't like a machine..."
A small smirk crossed her lips as she then realized a breath before doing her best to try and compose herself.
While the smirk was brief, it faded to be replaced with a calm stare as she looked at the pale assassin and then closed her eyes.
"Thank you...."
Moment MusicArashi couldn't say that she'd be okay....who could promise that other than herself...
Maybe it wasn't the most useful thing for her own well-being to push herself so hard and try and be more than what she could in such a state, but it honestly was all she knew how to do. Cause trouble or be supportive...
The first seemed more inclined to her character, but her experience had prompted her to at least be more tame about her mischief. In the end, these were two things that she knew she could do well...and honestly...it was better that she keep to those two forms rather than let herself ball herself into a corner.
"Come...we have huntin to do...and I don't wanna be out there too late..."
Moving forward, she'd begin to continue her way toward the gate, moving through the barrier that protected it from intruders as she began her approach into the desert.
While there were still some trails from her tears that remained, she'd slowly remove them from sight as her expression became more serious and focused on what laid before her.
-To be continued-
(You can make one last post if you want Mika. As always its a joy to rp with you. Sorry it took so long to respond. This will likely be moving toward a C.A for Arashi so if you are interested in being a part of it by all means let me know. But this probably won't be the last time Arashi needs her support Shippai lol )